Ok, so after a lot of thought, a lot of prayer, and a lot of talking….my decision has been made. I am cutting myself off from the world for awhile. I have come to realize that all of my priorities are WAY screwed up. I have trouble doing the important things like quiet times and school work because I am so consumed with thinking about facebook, thinking about the people I left behind. I hate that I haven’t opened my Bible in awhile, and I refuse to let that continue!
I am taking this break because God has shown me that I have been on facebook more than anything, all I do is text people I miss (not terrible, but I do it WAY too much). I never do my quiet times anymore because I’m so “busy” wanting to keep in contact with all these people, and stay involved–I make myself too busy to the point where quiet times have become obsolete. I know that I have bad days when I don’t have quiet times, and that is all I have had lately…I want to draw myself back to my Father, and spend my time doing the important things. I have to reach the point of happiness in my Father and call out to Him. It’s totally crazy how busy one person can let themselves become when things change. I mean don’t get me wrong, I am a huge fan of change, and I love college, but one thing should stay consistent–no, it shouldn’t stay consistent, it should be growing–that’s my relationship with Christ.
So as hard as this is going to be, I am turning off my computer–everything except the things I can’t function without for school such as my email, and my online classroom assignments. My computer will only be used for this and it will be for school purposes ONLY. That means goodbye facebook, and goodbye twitter. Now here is the REALLY DIFFICULT part…..my phone is going off as well. If someone REALLY needs me, you will have to write me a letter– 338B Stinchcomb Hall Stillwater, Oklahoma — if you absolutely HAVE to talk to me before then…you must email me, because I have to stay disciplined in this– firstname.lastname@example.org. Although I would really rather you write me a letter because email is going to be very tempting to get on facebook and twitter, and I don’t want put that temptation in my face everyday. But I promise I make a great pen pal 🙂
I have decided to make this commitment starting September 20, 2009. I have not officially decided how long this is going to take, but for now it will be at least one month– that means my posts should be on here by October 20, 2009. If this is not enough time to sort out my issues, I will make a post giving a date extension.
I don’t know how this is going to be, but I have to get my priorities straight, and this is the only way I know how. I am running back to God, and focussing on school as well. I am going to be journaling my way through this, and for those of you that care, I will post my journal entries from this experience and the ending results when I am done with this period. This was not a decision that was made lightly, I have been praying and thinking for a couple of weeks now, and I know that this is the right thing for me.
I would really appreciate everyone’s prayer and support in this decision because it is definitely not easy. I am running to God with all my heart, and this will definitely be a growing and morphing and molding process for me. In many ways I am excited, but I am also VERY nervous and scared, afterall, I am literally cutting myself off from people, but I hope you all understand. I love you all dearly, and I will be so glad to write you letters and email if you want to talk to me and see how it’s going, but I will not be on the computer very much so please send me letters instead of emails. Again, I would appreciate letters much more because being on the computer for too long will really tempt me to get on facebook and twitter which I am giving up. So please try to send paper ha! ha! Thank you so much for everything! I love you all dearly!